I've been stewing on a few things, like my path and were it is going.  I want to complete my training and I have a teacher that is willing as  long as I take better care of myself.  Which is a good thing since I am a very undisciplinded diabetic.  Which is a bad thing.  So I am focusing on my health for real this time, actually exercising, eating better and learning what I can do to do it better.  I have been so focused on taking care of everyone around me that I don't take care of myself, so this is an exciting time for me! 

My path in someways is becoming more personal and less trad oriented, although the basis is good.  I want more personal worship, kinship, more ecstatic, more understanding and growth in my path.  I am recalling what my first teacher taught me and how amazing she was and is!  How I aspire to be that kind of a Witch!  I am amazed by our Elders and I aspire to be that one day, to be the next solid link in our chain. 

Meditation has always been good for me but of late I haven't been doing it, grounding is getting harder for me sometimes.  Coming from someone who has like 5 planets in Capricorn, is really sad too!  I find grounding in ritual easy, but when I am trying to go to sleep and I can't because the mental chatter won't stop.  I try to ground, I run through the standard grounding practices and usually give up in frustration and just have to force myself to sleep.  I'm not sure what that means!

Anywas, that's my rambling for tonight!  Anyone got any suggestions for me?  I'd love to hear what folks think.

Bright Blessing to All,

Mary